“The void is frightening. It threatens to strip away your identity. And the fear of not knowing who you are sits deep in your unconscious. That’s why you find all reasons not to go too deeply into cultivating the awareness. For example, you suddenly feel the irresistible urge to scratch yourself or look around. And as soon as you move your body, the void is gone. The body has taken over – once again.
Or you create an intense feeling of boredom, and say to yourself, ‘Ah, this is the void, but there is nothing going on here. It’s just boring. And there are so many things I could do right now.’ So, you get up and continue your normal life in separation. Boredom is a very convenient and common excuse to avoid facing the fear of the void.
And then there are those who went into the void, took a look, ran away out of fear, but then joined the popular chorus that says, ‘Oh, the void, I was there, I must be enlightened! It is so full of potentials. Everything comes from there.’
Yeah, that’s true because:
All the dream worlds of separation are made up to fill the void!
They are born out of fear of being in the void, out of ignorance, greed, and an unquenchable thirst for ever more perceptions.
In other words, fearing or glorifying the void brings you nowhere! Quite the contrary. Instead, you have to face it and see it for what it truly is. That’s what we are going to do.”
"Why not let go of the illusion called 'I' and experience life for yourself? It seems to require courage, but that too is an illusion."
In my present state as constipated human,where that cosmic can opener just is not opening sufficiently,sometimes I see, and other times avoid seeing,Words often seem redundant, and a bit pointless really.I cannot express what anything is anymore. Yet I gnow something,but the mind has a field day with what it feels it knows…..Stay for a while longer says the mind seductively. We can work it out.
I go along every day finding not much meaning in anything.I have no meaningful relations with other humans now. Rather I find I am so easily irritated with “normal” human interaction. I can be kind when someone really needs my attention. Probably an old memory from a previous nursing background .Is this a permanent fixture I do wonder. It is not an unhappy state.Yet neither am I ever a bliss bunny. I easily distract myself with external stimulae.And as more layers fall away so slowly,exhaustion is usually the end product and sleep is always elusive.. Gratitude for this human experience is what I would love to feel.Everything fell away the past few linear years. I mean everything that i previously thought important. Now there is nothing. And something seems lacking. ….However.I plod on, from minute to minute.Nowhere to go. And it surely is rather a cosmic joke. And when one can laugh, it is def the best medicine. And tomorrow may be a different sensation. Thanks .